To returning: what is already ours and what never was

At the end of 2025, I completed my Saturn Return. Yes, thank you, I made it. Just last week, I completed my 30th trip around the sun, completing my most recent solar return. In all of this returning, I have been returning to myself, again and again. I’ve gone dark to be with my shadows, to be present with community, and to launch my business which is helping me actualize all of my learnings.

Every step of the way there are reminders of who I am, who I have always been, connections to those who came before me that I never knew, and affirmations that I am on the path, my ancestors, guides, and Spirit have lead me to. Even still, that fear, those voices that aren’t mine, the weight of the world, the imposter syndrome of it all, continues to sneak up on me.

Launching Anika Pathways was never about finished work. It’s about being in the midst of our work, together. To honor the mess, honest, unapologetic truth of living in authenticity in a broken world as we work as a collective to liberate ourselves and build anew.

It’s taken me a long time to write this month. To honor what I have to say and to take my power back from perfectionism. I am quieter than I ever have been and the more I listen, the more we have to say. Staying internal, allowing our liberation to only be in our minds, simply is not liberation.